LAWL

I don't know whether to laugh or cry.

The HuffPost takes Supernatural seriously? SERIOUSLY?

Okay, I guess. A year ago we'd have killed for press like this. Now? It just seems like one big cosmic joke, especially since the writer mentions specifically episodes 5.08 and 5.09 as being his "two favorite hours of television this fall." This person didn't come across as a jokester, but that has got to be tongue-in-cheek. While the Trickster episode was admittedly one of the few good episodes that have aired this Season, the fan convention one was just - too ridiculous.

I do appreciate the fact that show is getting good press, it just really feels wrong to be getting it for such out-of-sync episodes as have aired this year.

My blog, my 2c.

I'll try to be back later with "10 Things I'm Thankful For," or some such. I'll try not to make it a whiny post about how much I miss the Sam who loved his brother so much that he moved a wardrobe - with his mind - when he thought his brother was about to be murdered. Or how much I regret the fact that it really doesn't look as if Dean ever came back from Hell. In fact, maybe the whole point of show is, Children Shouldn't Play with Dead Things. The Dead should stay dead. Lessons like this used to mean something. Now? It's just a comic book world. More often than not Show is making fun of us and what it used to be. That's just - sad.

I do agree 1000% with this part of what Ed Martin wrote: Jared Padalecki (as Sam) and Jensen Ackles (as Dean) continue to do outstanding work, regardless of the curves show-runner Eric Kripke throws their way. I should think most young actors would kill to land roles as demanding as these. Week after week, Padalecki and Jensen shift gears between exciting action sequences, powerful dramatic confrontations and side-splittingly funny moments with equal aplomb.

Yes, I continue to say: Jensen and Jared are the best part of Show. Some things don't change - and that is one thing I'm pretty grateful for.

The Party's Over

Dean dreams, finding out what's real, Fourth season
Could it be that this is really all there is?

Well guise. Time to come clean... I used to be a Supernatural fan.

What happened?


Hell, what didn't happen?



Who'd have thought that such a fantastic, amazing story as that of two brothers committed to fighting evil at all costs would become just another bunch of Hollywood losers taking aim at their own fandom? Nah, me neither. But well - I'm starting to wonder if Kripke's secretly hired the one-man self-assassination squad that is Russell T. Davies to run the show while he himself writes lame-assed scripts, and Sera Gamble and Ben Edlund have flown off to Mt. Tambora together, getting high on their residuals and drinking away their pain.

Yeah, this isn't what I signed up for, either. Aaaand looking at the numbers, doesn't appear as if I'm the only one, kiddos.

I said before that this show would be nothing without the team of people who put it together, the amazing directors, actors, and behind-the-scenes staff who put their heart and soul into every episode. And right now I just don't wanna suffer through yet another episode that started with a crappy script that Jensen & Jared & all the wonderful people in Vancouver made into something endearingly watchable and memorable... They are the Lemonade Kings, ahahaha. Don't get me wrong, I'm sure 5.09 is amazing in its own way because of these wonderful, creative and extremely talented people. It's just that - from the description and reactions from a lot of reviewers, it just smacks of fanservice. And I expected more than that from this particular show.

Sam watches, ready and waiting, Third season
Sigh. Yeah, I'll watch it. Eventually. But right now I've got an appointment with life. I suggest you do the same. Let it rest for awhile, let a few episodes accumulate in your "To-Watch" folder. It appears to me that the next few might make more sense if we watch them all at once, maybe in a Supernatural Marathon weekend. It should say something that I really don't even care that my purchased downloads of the episodes from Amazon don't count toward the numbers. I kind of want to send that message to the CW: ugh, with the pandering already.

Better yet, I may be getting my SamnDean stories from fanfiction for awhile. Some writers have always had a better twist with a pen than Kripke could ever aspire to have. After all, we all know where it's going, and as long as we all end up at the same destination, does it really matter how we get there?

Sam and Dean facing death, Croatoan, Second season

All images credit to the CW and Warner Brothers.

DISCLAIMER: This review is the (mostly) tongue-in-cheek, entirely insouciant opinion of the author. No offense intended, don't sue. It's just a damn TV show.

ETA: Okay, I watched the episode. *ahem* It is possible I gave Kripke a little too much credit. God, he should be getting down on his hands and knees and PRAISING ALL THE SAINTS that he has such an awesome team. In normal actors' hands this thing would have been unwatchable. Ugh, next thing you know he'll write an episode and call it, "Lame and Creepy." Yeah, I get it. Whatever. It probably sounded better in his head. Because of Jensen & Jared, the characters live beyond the page (that was your point, yeah, don't beat it to death, kthx). I'm going back to writing... and not anticipating the next episode.

SustainFloyd next Weekend

We visited Floyd last month and really can't wait to go back again.

From friend Fred's blog:

After a successful assembly at the foot of Buffalo Mountain for a drizzly-foggy October 10th “350 climate action”, SustainFloyd now looks ahead to the first community festival of its kind in the county, the SplitRail Eco-Fair, to celebrate ecologically-sustainable aspects of agriculture, arts, commerce, education and life together in vibrant community in a changing world.fragmentsfromfloyd.com, Fragments From Floyd, Oct 2009
Read the rest here

YouTube video of Buffalo Mountain assembly

Really wish I could go, but probably won't make it. It's a rather busy time for me right now - but my heart is there, and I have high hopes for a great weekend for those who can!

Because We Do

The last thing Sam said to his brother Dean at the end of last night's episode (5.04) was, "Because we don't have a choice." But the line that was silently transmitted through the look Dean returned to him was, "No, Sam. It's because we do."

Sam and Dean's journey is all about choice.

Free will sustains the human condition. To succomb to the temptation of blindly following rules imposed by others in order to feel safe, in the right, or morally superior is to give in to the power rush that enables people to do horrific things to one another.

To protect from those who have given in to that temptation is the free choice of those who would seek to also protect the right to choose for all mankind. And that is the sustainable lesson here.



This season is difficult to say the very least. It's the end of the journey, the downhill run. We know where they're going, what we aren't certain is all the twists and turns it will take to get there. But if where we've been with the Winchesters is anything to go on, they're not going without me. I'm so there, hanging on with all my might.

Amen, and even so come.

Check out my friend Marla's excellent Supernatural episode 5.04 recap post at Eclipse Magazine

Rearview Mirror

Well, chickas. It seems that the long and lonely road traveled by the Winchester boys is about to come full circle - again.

I've read with some amusement (a very few of) the proliferation of squee-filled posts and reviews for this past episode, 5.03 Free to Be You and Me chanting the song of the angel - you know, that walking dead thing filled with the spectre of some holier-than-thou ghost.

Good God, Y'all. This is so missing the point. Sorry to break it to some of you, but he's just a vessel. And really, BuddyTV? REALLY? What show have you been watching if you didn't see that coming back - oh, I dunno, halfway thru Season One? Jeebus. If you're looking for a review of this third episode in the fifth season of the greatest show on television that isn't really about website hits and places the side characters firmly in their places, on the sidelines, you've come to the right place.

This, as I really don't have to remind most of you out there, is a show about Sam and Dean.

Firstly, how quickly they forget. There's dearest faithful Bobby, who is literally sidelined for the foreseeable future, having given his body for his son - because family don't end with blood, boy. No, I'm not saying Bobby is really Dean's long-lost Papa. It's just a reference, just a reminder, that in this War that began at the inception of humanity there will always be sacrifices, some of which are very hard to live with because they happen to those closest to us, sometimes to people we don't know how we'll go on without. It's good to see that Bobby hasn't lost his spark, though, and I look forward to seeing him continue to give guidance and even kick Sam and Dean's asses from a vantage point that could actually offer him the chance to see, hear, and maybe even do things that he may have missed from his former standing position. No, really. Watch and see.


Secondly, this loser!Angel. You do realize, that the only reason he's here is to offer some back-up to the boys, and give Jensen & Jared a chance to take a much-needed rest from being two leads in an extremely action-packed, intense fantasy drama. The guys are otherwise going to be completely worn out before their time.

Hmm. I'm sorry he's so annoying, Dean. But is it him or the fact that you'd really rather be doing this by yourself? Yeah, I thought so.

Think of Castiel as a piece of useful furniture. You don't really bond with the furniture. He's provided them with knowledge and cool skeletal tattoos but don't for a second think it's not for his own purposes. He's just as confused as anyone else who can't see both sides of an issue. And don't forget that Dean still has yet to find out just who it was who freed Sam from Bobby's panic room to go kill Lilith and thence allow Lucifer to rise. I really can't wait for when that happens.

But Dean and Sam have parted for the time being, and it's a conscious, deliberate break-up. The brothers had to do this in order to find their way back together. It's in the normal realm of deeply bonded relationships. Dean and Sam need to find out just who each of them is, exactly, and it's much like when Sam went off to Stanford. They were apart for over 2 1/2 years according to the rumors. Think how much each of them grew into his own during that time.

Think how much that's happened in just one episode.



O hai thur, WIAWSNB scene with Sam-as-Dean. Again.

Which brings me to each of them individually: I'll take Sam first. Because UNF. Jesus Padalecki knocked it out of the park, didn't he? From tearful recognition of not!Jess with his still-curious doubt of her mission tinged with genuine love and regret to gutsy, dirty grappling with two desperate hunters from his own side of the team (you know, the confused side), Jared played the gamut of emotional scale with perfection. If anyone is left who thinks this actor can't play just about any type of role he's given, please just watch this episode. Jared has come into his own, and I won't lessen his accomplishment by tangentially referencing his co-star here. Jared makes Sam a living, breathing soul.

And tell me you didn't stand up and cheer when he spat out the demon blood force-fed to him by the two hunters. If you didn't, go back and watch it again. And don't miss the point this time.

See there? The end of 4.20 The Rapture, re-visited. Only he won this time.

This moment was an epiphany for Sam. It is analogous to the one Dean had in 3.10 Dream a Little Dream of Me, when he angrily acknowledges in his fight with himself that the load his father put on him in forcing him to raise his brother and deny so many of his own emotional needs was more than any kid should have had to bear.

It was humanity, rising from the apocalypse.

No, he didn't need the feather to fly. But the seeds of doubt that were planted in him from the moment he knew he'd been fed demon blood as an infant had fertile soil in which to take root, made lush and rich after Ruby's betrayal. Sam didn't know what the blood would do to him. He only knew he wanted it out of him. His body, his choice. In flinging what was forced on him away and acting to defend the innocent Lindsay, Sam was reclaiming his actual birthright as a fully formed human being. Not devil spawn, not his mother's heartbreak, his brother's responsibility, or his daddy's failure.


Hey there, it's Sam's bleeding heart shirt again. That's a clue.

Now Dean. It's easy to miss the boat completely on Dean in this episode. Before I go too far with this analysis, though, let's examine the function of the two angels we saw here: Raphael and Castiel.

Ostensibly, they are brothers (Cas refers to all angels as his brothers, remember), if not in actuality, certainly in past relationships - both fighting for the same team, formerly trusting each other and working together. Quickly, because I'm sure most of you missed it: Raphael, the seemingly stronger angel, killed his brother Castiel, who rose again and came after him because Raph had information Cas wanted, namely the location of God. Or so Cas believed. Ah, because we believe... but I digress (if only slightly).

This would be a roach motel for angels. What else do you think is going on here?

When Cas and Dean trap Raphael, question him and then leave him in the ring of fire, please God - tell me you did not miss the oh-so-very-obvious replaying of the entire scene in Bloodlust where Sam and Dean leave Gordon in the abandoned cabin to stew in his own juice for awhile, and consider the results of his actions. Helloooo, show hit you over the head that it was coming, weren't you watching?



If you did miss it, please go watch episode 2.03 again. Because you're going to miss other things that are coming up soon and then you're going to be completely b'zuhed after that. I saw some pretty out-of-touch analysis of that scene because people missed that. Hi, the dialogue in parts is almost word-for-word. I suppose I should say it again: Show tells, and then it tells us again, and then it tells us it told us, and then it tells us it told us AGAIN. Sheesh.

Hokay. Where was I? Oh, the telling us it told us already. I saw people missed the point of Raphael's "Waaaah! I'm so tired!" soliloquy, too. Okay, maybe you need to watch the entire second season again. RAPHAEL = DEAN. CASTIEL = SAM. In this particular instance. Don't hold that as gospel as we go forward in the season, because if Sam and Dean can play each other and trade places, you know damn well the angels can do the same thing, too.


But back to Dean. I save him for last because this really wasn't his episode, but he is my favorite. I love Sam with the burning passion of a thousand lustful gods, but Dean is - well, I can't describe my love for Dean so that's how I know it's a leetle bit stronger. But right now? Dean needs that serious beat-down he promised Sam in 4.22. Only, he's not gonna get it until he faces his worst demons (again): his own self. That's in an upcoming episode, but I'm getting ahead of myself here. Dean had an epiphany, too, this time. It was perhaps a bit more obvious than Sam's, but it was pretty damn significant.



Again, Castiel was only a part of the furniture here. He was the vessel, the catalyst for Dean to realize something. When show faked you out and made you think it was forgetting its own canon (because please god Kripke, you didn't really forget that angels don't have sex, did you? Clearly you did not. Ahaha.) and Dean takes Castiel to the brothel (because Dean knows the lat-longs for those things in absolutely every state in the Union, duh) the whole point of that was, to get Dean over himself. While Jensen's half-hearted attempt at a belly laugh as the two characters exited the brothel after Cas totally creeps that poor girl rtf out sounded more like bad gas than an honest exclamation of utter amusement, I choose to think it's more because it's physically been so damn long since Dean did laugh, like he claims. He's rusty. But that amazed chuckle was the sign that something had cracked open inside our intrepid warrior, Dean Winchester. It was the sound of the butterfly leaving his chrysalis.


At that moment, Dean sat up, stretched his emotional wings, and flew free of the responsibility he had carried since the age of four: that of taking care of Sam. From here on, Dean is living his own life, free of that emotional baggage. He finally recognized that he's an individual, and it's not so damn bad to live on your own and take care of yourself. Bravo, Dean. Good job.


Yeah, I know what you're thinking. And you'd be right. It's not the same. But it's not time yet. The river of Sam and Dean is an oxbow right now. Be patient. All rivers straighten out eventually.

So. To recap: In this episode Free to Be You and Me, what did that mean, exactly? Sam accepted his loss and reclaimed his humanity, and Dean learned and accepted the fact that he is an individual. Dean hunting with a disadvantaged idiot savant who blurts intelligences at odd moments and can't button his own collar may feed the fantasies of a certain set of unenlightened minions but it doesn't mean Dean has replaced Sam. In fact, it's quite obvious that Dean's only way of having fun with Castiel is to either make fun of him with obscure pop-culture references or by putting him in impossible situations (where our Sam, btw, would have been right at home). When Cas is in the room, it's easy to ignore him by looking at something far more interesting - like the ceiling, the floor, or the walls. You can listen to what he says as he parrots things past characters or one of the boys has said to each other, you can thank him for his obscure skeletal talisman-tattoos. He's semi-useful like that. But don't be looking for him to replace brother for brother.

In this universe, only what is real stands the remotest chance of survival.


Don't be looking for any of this to happen, either. Much as it may be fun to think about. And really nice job, Mark Pelligrino. I approve of this casting.

Screencaps by Marishna


Useful links:
SupernaturalWiki page for this episode
All Supernatural episodes are available for download at Amazon - Checkit! No watermarks, and in HD, too!
Previous metas at susannaheanes' LJ

Oh SNAP

Dear Kripke:
In lieu of posting I'ma linky you to this epic recap post of awesome. Because seriously, Show may be #1 on my list of things to do on Thursday nights but I agree 100% with My Professors. Because even if it is your overall intent to show that everyone is partly to blame for the fuck-up that goes by the name of The Apocalypse, so far, as usual, poor Sammy is suffering all the pain and guilt and pointy-fingers. I hope you understand that this shit won't fly for long.

SO, ERIC: READ THIS AND WEEP. AND THEN FIX IT. KTHX.

Seriously, you could do worse than to hire AJ & MT to write Show.

Love,
Sophie Pie

Pee Ess. This pic (again!), because Geek!Jensen is my favorite.


Pee Pee Ess. This one is my second favorite. Because you can never have too much subtext. God, that is a beautiful man.


Screencap by oxoniensis

It always makes me smile

This is my favorite image of the week. You go, dude. That is all. (Thanks to Jim Beaver for sharing.)

Okay - fair enough. Sam - Jared - deserves equal time. How about that Cosmo Top Hotties listing? And this picture?

(Thanks Smidgy and Bookie. It took me at least 10 minutes after you posted this for me to remember my name and where I was. Eff you.)

All the speculation about Supernatural and whether or not John will return, will Sam go dark (and what does that mean, exactly?) and will Cas replace Sam as Dean's soulmate (as if... does anyone really think this? Are you watching the same show as the rest of us?) just makes me shake my head anymore. Have I reached some new level as a fan? The "I really don't care as long as it's SHOW" level? Perhaps. Or maybe I've just finally learned to integrate my calling as a Supernatural fan into the rest of my life. Yeah, that's it.

So, yeah - show is back as of last Thursday and it was amazing, wasn't it? I've got some new friends to share thoughts with - check the new "Elite Affiliates" links on the sidebar - and lots of things to keep me busy now. Sigh. I intend to continue running the communities like The Stanford Mystery Years, Jo/Sam, Dean/Layla, and a few other private comms. Also, please check out the episode recap and meta at Supernatural University. It's always worthwhile, thought-provoking, and enjoyable.

I'll be tweeting tomorrow but I hope to god it doesn't get stupid like it did last week. Just post #Supernatural whenever you feel like it coupled with some astute observation or quote from Show and we'll be fine. Let well enough alone. It's just a goddamned TV show, right? *ducks flying objects* So anyway, don't forget to watch tonite at 9/8C. And then purchase the episode if you liked it, through Amazon or iTunes. Vote your pocketbook, ladies and gentlemen. I always have to watch an episode at least two or three times anyway, just for effect. BECAUSE, DAMMIT.


So - to end, have some happy J2 outtakes - there's a lot more from that April EW photoshoot over at Hunters' Addict. And after that, join me over at The School, because that's where it's goin' on. Just sayin'.

Images credit J-Padalecki.org, Warner Brothers, and the CW.

"He's coming..."

It amuses me greatly that #luciferiscoming and #supernatural are top trending topics on Twitter today. Even more amusing? That apparently some ultra-religious peeps are taking it seriously. Well, Ben Edlund did say that Kripke intended to invent his own religion, so this is possibly an appropriate reaction. Yes, I kid. I kid. ETA: Apparently this got out of hand and Twitter censored our trending topics, which were promptly replaced by #inkripkewetrust. For crying out loud.

Tonight at 9/8 Central, the Supernatural boys ride again in their desperate and often lonely battle against ultimate evil. The fact that as often as not, this evil manifests within themselves is only one way that this show separates itself from mainstream horror and science fiction, stretching toward the philosophical and even psychological realm. The show has been described as "The X-Files meet Route 66," which is appropriate given that some of the same people who brought you The X-files are now working as writers, directors, and producers on Supernatural.

"The little show that could" is probably the best television series of the entire decade. Sam and Dean are two brothers driven by a family tradition of fighting on the side of justice, and their challenges and motivations are often diametrically opposed. Yet the brothers must learn, it seems, over and over again that when they are separated the very worst things happen. In previews of episodes to come early in this season it looks like they still don't understand this lesson, but then again, perhaps it's only to show us (and each other) how many ways they can break apart and come back together again. For when they're together fighting back to back against indefinably horrific odds, Sam and Dean - whose story and intertwined destinies seem to be those of modern dioscuri - evolve into the Wonder Twins; even when they seem to have lost everything as long as one remains they both somehow manage to survive.

The Winchester story is drama in its highest form, involving family, emotional wreckage, bitterest grief and ultimate sacrifice. Theirs is a bloody battleground, the tableau of which is often as destructive mentally as it is physically, but at the root of it is a moral lesson: nothing is stronger than the bonds of love, and family doesn't end with blood. Theirs is seemingly a no-win situation, their destiny seems to be bound to the eternal war between good and evil. And still there are no easily defined paths, for what seems good is often horrible, and what appears to be evil can be understandable and even right for the circumstances. Sometimes what we fear most could ultimately be our saving grace.

Join me tonight in welcoming the Winchesters back to our living rooms in the fifth season of this fine offering in American television, with the first episode entitled Sympathy for the Devil airing at 9/8 central on the CW network. Check local listings for stations.

See you in the JBox!

All Images courtesy Warner Bros

Hot and Cold All Over

Today was too ridiculous to believe in SO many ways and I can't even talk about it - let's just say the Universe? She bites. It was the kind of day where good news was immediately followed by bad news which was followed by WTF-ery and then a little more good news and then ...Hopefully things will be better tomorrow.

Okay. *breathes*

Let me distract myself with this wonderful report:


JENSEN ACKLES WON A PORTAL AWARD FOR BEST ACTOR. AND SUPERNATURAL WON FOR BEST SHOW. And there was more but I forget WHAT because I'm a little distracted right now by things that will be happening in a couple of days. I'll talk about them later - Maybe.

Anyway - DISTRACTION:


Congratulations, Jensen! GOOD ON YOU.
Obviously, Jared approves. \0/


This is something of a big deal, and am so glad to see it. Jensen Ackles beating out David Tennant for Best Actor! And Show beating Battlestar Galactica for Best Series/Television - so much win. Congratulations also to Supernatural.tv for best website - much deserved recogntion, indeed.

Now, just let me make it through the next 48 hours, and I'll be good. I think.

Supernatural Season 5 Promo

I succumbed and watched a Season Five Supernatural Promo.

I knew I'd be sorry. And I am.

I was only slightly antsy waiting for September 10th. Now? I'll be writing like a madwoman.

ANGELS AND DEMONS. AND TWO GUYS CAUGHT IN THE MIDDLE... WHO ARE A BIT OF BOTH. Seriously, what did we on earth do to deserve to have this show? I can't even. I just can't. Just amazing, and YES. Ah, Gods.

The song is Oh, Death as sung by R.I.S.E. (Rising Appalachia)
Buy it at Amazon

Slightly different lyrics; couldn't find their version, but these are similar. A wonderful thing about Appalachian songs is, people changed the words at times to fit their own circumstances. So it's kind of awesome that Show found one to fit theirs, yahnno?

- Ralph Stanley Lyrics

Updates

I recently abandoned my chatty-fannish LiveJournal in order to concentrate more fully on writing, both fannish and mundane. I plan to open this blog back up to public viewing as I'm feeling the desire to pontificate here again.

Just letting subscribers know. Hope all are well.

Big!Bang WIP - Art by Elli

Yeas, I think I just died.



Demon!Impala... disappearing over the horizon after smashing into the boys. Seriously, this artist is gonna slay me.

ETA: BigBang Posted at Dreamwidth: Play Dead [NC17].

Creative Minds

Hai guise.

I'm posting here - for a change - because what I have to say fits more in line with what I'd originally set up this blog in order to do: comment on the state of the world at large, and maybe social, geographical, economic and environmental things specifically.

I was asked this morning by my boss to read an article by Richard Florida (The Rise of the Creative Class), published in The Atlantic, entitled, "How the Crash will Reshape America." Our little town of Sumter, SC is participating in Earth Day's "Spotlight Conversations," which is kind of a big deal.

As I read, I found my lips curling as I imagined Jim Kunstler's reaction to the article. Seriously, I wanna toss those two in a room and just listen to what happens. It could be kind of explosively awesome.

Even more awesome would be if Osha Davidson chimed in and gave his 45 cents worth.

hee.

NEW SPN TONITE. At some point I really still need to write that blog post about how the Impala is awesome and may actually save the Universe. No, really.

Also - I never blogged about election day in Horatio, South Carolina. I really am fail.

happy new year

So. This would be a shout-out from Jensen. Why? Because I use the word "palpable" like, all the TIME. And people go - um, what IS that word? *snorfle* At least SOMEONE USES A DICTIONARY:





YES. So, MT - yes, I DO know how you feel every time Jared says "shenanigans."

LOL

No, this post is not supposed to be anything other than fluff. I've been writing like a madwoman for the past five months and it's 80K words later and I STILL have nothing new completed to post.... other than what you've seen already. Also - the novels aren't finished either. This whole damn year has been FAILBUCKET - and aren't we glad it's going bye-bye? Yes. Yes we are.

I'll be at the School. *waves wand*

*tipples champagne*

Obviously, this is the best I have to offer at the moment.

Here's to Us. Long may we wave. And I only have One New Years' wish. PLEASE GOD. I want to see a certain actor in a nice red and blue suit before the year is out. Yes? MFY.

More on that at some point. I really don't want to jinx it.

I'll be back soon with a real post, I promise. I still need to blog about Election Day in Sumter County. And working for the government AGAIN. And... Resolutions. And Physics. ...and ...oh yeah. HORSES.

As I said, I fail in so many ways.

But as one of my co-workers says every time something goes to shit, "Well. God Bless Us, Every One."

hai oh hai out there

(be clicky for really big!)
not even attempting to try to cram a real post into the negative amount of time available just now... just sharing a pic from chicago and basically just poking a hole in the fabric of the intarwebz so i can come back later and catch up taking notes. (oh hai there miss amber & j2. you look damn good on paper, you know?)

christmas is coming... the goose is wobbling, he's so fat. it promises to be a high old time down on the farm - HORSES, WE HAZ DEM. they are so wonderful. heather & jason are pleased, and so, of course, am i.

i'll post pix soon & a real update, i promise. no, srsly. I DO.

what are you guise up to? plans, observations, panting trivialities? it all matters. it just makes a difference to whom you direct them. i'm all ears. what's shakin'?

Why Jensen Ackles Matters

In case you ever had any doubts at all. We need a new word for love. The old one just... doesn't quite cover it.



In other words: DEAR FANDOM, LOVE JARED. Dude. We love your new party dress. You should totally wear him more often. LOL


And I may or may not have had something to do with this:

Why Jensen Ackles Matters: A Study in Fiction and Meta. You will need to enter a password in order to enter the site and read. What password, you say? Do I know you? Well, if so, email me. Otherwise, butt out. This essay caused a ridiculous amount of wank from people who had nothing better to do than purposely misunderstand and create issues where there weren't any. So to keep everyone happy, I've blinded it. There, ya happy now? No? Fuck off, then.

NOTE: This is the link to the middle (Meta) portion of the article at the School of Jensen and Jared, without the controversial fictional conversations that bookended the original version. If you want to read the original version, email me and if I know you AND I like you, you'll get the link and passwords. (And may I ask, if it's not your cup of tea, please just pass on by. This thing caused quite an unnecessary kerfuffle a few weeks ago, and I'd rather not go through that again. Also - bearing in mind that the purpose of this was to appreciate the man, not to embarrass him - it's best that it stay out of public view and away from shark attacks. Thank you.)

It's important. Because he does matter. The end.

Learn. Remember. Pass it On.

THE ULTIMATE SILENCE
October 12, 1998



Listen to the mustn'ts, child.
Listen to the don'ts.
Listen to the shouldn'ts,
The impossibles, the won'ts.
Listen to the never haves,
Then listen close to me ...
Anything can happen, child.
Anything can be.

~ Shel Silverstein

Ten years ago, Matthew Shepard was murdered for being homosexual.

What will you do to end the silence?

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of god and man

Image courtesy Warner Bros./CW Network

Sigh.

What does it mean to idolize someone? It's an extreme form of Namaste, actually. I respect that divinity within you that is also within me. What can start out as a good thing becomes wrong when you refuse to allow someone to be human. When you elevate that person to the status beyond which he or she'd be allowed to have faults.

I'm so guilty of that. Dude. I know. It's wrong.

I wonder if when we perceive that our idols have tumbled off the pedestals upon which we placed them it says more about the darkness in our own selves than the one who was so objectified.

I wonder how many times we have to learn the same lesson, again, and again.

I do wonder... why it matters.

In a world where words carry so much weight, I'm leaning now toward this: "What may be spoken is already dead in the heart." --Nietsche

I don't have too many words now. I don't think I need them. Other than to say, I think things are better now, and that maybe the lesson took this time. The mountains are lovely this time of year, we all need a place to go away and think, reconnect, commune with friends. On a lake or on a mountaintop, sometimes it is almost necessary just to get away where one can hear oneself think... and perhaps even more important to have someone there who understands and accepts us for exactly who we are.

We already know all the answers. We just need to remember them.

"Stanislavski was right, you can find fresh pain every time you rediscover what you pretty much already know." --Chuck Palahniuk, Diary

If apologies are necessary, you have them. I do not apologize for being human. Neither do I apologize for being in love with my perception. If your life is broadcast on the internet, as so many of ours are, it may be a good thing to find out how to use that for good. I'm learning. All of us are.

(Icons by all_at_once, wifey, nightcomes, and crystalchain. Original images courtesty SPN Media and Warner Brothers.)

at long last, love

Last Thursday our Show came back with a bang - literally - as Dean scratched and crawled his way out of the loose dirt that was ever-so-gently piled over the pine box in which Sam and Bobby lay him four months previously. There was so much to love about the way the story continued from the horrifying ending of last season.

Amen, even so come, Lord... not to stray too far into the nebulously Judeo-Christian theme set forth in Lazarus Rising, I was gratified to see the grays are even more fine-grained this season. An Angel of the Lord yanked Dean from the Pit of Hell, because God commanded it. I said months ago that Dean would be like Aslan - an innocent who voluntarily, willingly gave up his life to save another, and this action would spark a reversal of something, a renewal, and ultimately lead to his salvation, and perhaps even that of his brother. I still say it.

The metaphors of good against evil are lushly painted against a backdrop of brotherly love in this story. I'm settling in for some good, old-fashioned storytelling this season. Who's with me?

ironies are ironical

It's coming. Three years ago, we were right here - weren't we?

Here's some perspective for ya. Thanks, sockkie... what you said, a million million times. I wish I could be as eloquent when I'm upset, but I cannot. I wasn't going to even say a word.

Nope. I tried, but I can't shut up.

Dear People who are having a party next week:

Can we just say - Raining on Your Parade, Much?

Somehow, I doubt they'll even notice. Heh, they'll be ON THE OPPOSITE SIDE OF THE COUNTRY.

In other news, IT'S THURSDAY, Y'ALL. And if it weren't for Supernatural, I'd never turn on the television at all - like, EVER.